oh yah [23 Dec 2009|10:52pm] megszoo Dear Universe Thank You very much for the money. I really, really,really appreciate it. If you could let me find a bill on the ground somewhere that would be a fuckin' cakewalk baby! Love you Universe c'ya later!

I thought I was being paranoid,but nope it is not random [23 Dec 2009|10:49pm] megszoo [ mood | artistic ] [ music | another trashy love ooah PANTyRAID enter the machine ] I'M BEING WATCHED!!! my "invisible guest" follows a mathematical pattern whether she/he are aware of it or not (haha on me for typing a sentence that includes the words mathematical pattern somewhere a comet hit a planet and killed all the children) i suspect the government is my 'invisible guest' or it could possibly be an ignorant,ugly fuckwad who has no life could be either somehow I'm thinking its the second 'mathematically' it makes more sense and i really shouldn't just give all this attention to lonely people with no lives,but I can't help it its fun! lonely losers need love too if you would like to sponsor a loser please: go to weight watchers and then look in a mirror. Tell yourself that you are pretty and deserve love at least ten times, follow that by then calling 1-800-deepak chopra says I'm special Remember: You will find that special someone who wants to lick your nasty smelling parts as long as you love yourself. No one who truly loves you would want you to change,they will accept you as nasty and disgusting. After all its all about accepting people for who they are and if they don't accept you for being a rank ass stench worthy assplug its because they are callous assholes. You are not the one with the problem,its them. It is always them. 2 more days-two more days TWO MORE DAYS SOOOOOOOOOoooooooo exciting!!!!!!! fjghsdfjkghsgjhagj'aio' dflgjadflikg did i tell you people to fuck off yet today? No? strange

[22 Dec 2009|03:47am] galaxyjen hooray they decided to give us both Thursday and Friday off w/ pay. Best news ever! I hope they do the same next week w/ NYE because I already have a 4 day weekend (Monday the 4th is vacation) and 5 days would be even better since Brad is taking a week off. I reallllllly want to go up north and play in the snow =) post comment

someone who will remain unnamed may need to ground themselves from the internet [21 Dec 2009|11:14pm] megszoo I tremble, they're gonna eat me alive If I stumble they're gonna eat me alive Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer? Beating like a hammer Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer Hard to be soft, tough to be tender Come take my pulse, the pace is on a runaway train Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer If you're still alive my regrets are few If my life is mine what shouldn't I do? I get wherever I'm going, I get whatever I need While my blood's still flowing and my heart's still Beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer Hard to be soft, tough to be tender Come take my pulse, the pace is on a runaway train Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer If you're still alive my regrets are few If my life is mine what shouldn't I do? I get wherever I'm going, I get whatever I need While my blood's still flowing and my heart's still beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer I tremble, they're gonna eat me alive If I stumble they're gonna eat me alive Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer? Beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Beating like a hammer Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer

[21 Dec 2009|03:06pm] azchica19 Anyone else think this commerical is the greatest? I think I just love Biz Markie. Makes me giggle 2 comments|post comment

AHA the answer dear watson is: [20 Dec 2009|11:00pm] megszoo [ music | a friends voice in my ear ] it was a clever ploy good thing I lied about everything.

Are you allowed to deny the Universe? Cause I just did [18 Dec 2009|11:57pm] megszoo [ mood | high ] [ music | radikal guru east west connection (MotherFuuuuuker) ] clever ploy? clever distraction? (and if so from what exactly? clever manipulation? - unpleasant encounters for free? or actual opportunity?? A REALLY COOL OPPORTUNITY (can't spell it without the U) Universe are you really this good? I don't mean to doubt you because you have been awesome,but the paranoia whispers. If you allow this to transpire, if you could let this happen, I would be sooo grateful and it would make my 24th birthday, thee best EVER! I might even do something cool in the future if you continue to let me live my life as a high class refugee. I mean either way I am going to have a kick ass time,but I would definitely have a better time if you gave me both things! come now Universe, you were going to give it to me anyway, don't tell me this is my lesson in "don't burn bridges" I have learnt all that I will learn from that lesson which is that I'm not going to learn. I will continue to burn my bridges. *WHATCHAGUNNADO* PS: I must ask: Is this your way of ass fucking me? cause thats not fucking funny and I deny you! DENIED! (ohno new catch phrase) (((((((((first if you don't get a message this Universe pokes you "hey, I've got something to teach you" if you still don't get the message the Universe is a little louder and is like "Excuse me, I was talking here" ifffff you still don't listen the Universe is like "HEY, MOTHERFUCKER OVER HERE BOOOOOOOOM")))))))))))))))))))))) the universe is indiscriminate. I just don't want this to be a cruel joke or a hoax or something just to fuck with me. I will be able to handle my disappointment if the offer was really real,but taken off the table because I'm an asshole. I could understand that, its more than fair. I expect that MY WISH BE GRANTED. And Universe where the fuck is the cheque in the mail? I was expecting it yesterday. WHERES MY MONEY???????

"Coming Again to the Beloved" Ghazal 3079, Rumi [14 Dec 2009|03:21pm] sol_amoun From: <sshomi@gmail.com> Date: Mon, Dec 14, 2009 at 9:04 AM Subject: [Sunlight] Coming again to the Beloved -- Ghazal 3079 To: Sunlight@yahoogroups.com ~ Sunlight presents Ode 3079 - in a version by Coleman Barks and in a translation by A.J. Arberry: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ MEADOWSOUNDS We've come again to that knee of seacoast no ocean can reach. Tie together all human intellects. They won't stretch to here. The sky bares its neck so beautifully, but gets no kiss. Only a taste. This is the food that everyone wants, wandering the wilderness, "Please give us your manna and quail." We're here again with the beloved. This air, a shout. These meadowsounds, an astonishing myth. We've come into the presence of the one who was never apart from us. When the waterbag is filling, you know the water carrier's here! The bag leans lovingly against your shoulder. "Without you I have no knowledge, no way to reach anyone." When someone chews sugarcane, he's wanting this sweetness. Inside this globe the soul roars like thunder. And now silence, my strict tutor. I won't try to talk about Shams. Language cannot touch that presence. -- Version by Coleman Barks "The Essential Rumi" HarperSanFrancisco, 1995 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We have come once again to a lord to whose knee no sea reaches. Tie together a thousand minds, they will not reach Him; how shall a hand or foot reach the moon in heaven? The sky stretched out its throat eagerly to Him; it found no kiss, but it swallowed a sweetmeat. A thousand throats and gullets stretched towards His lip. "Scatter too on our heads manna and quails." We have come again to a Beloved, from whose air a shout has reached our ears. We have come again to that sanctuary to bow the brow which is to surpass the skies. We have come again to that meadow to whose bolbol `anqa is a slave.* We have come to Him who was never apart from us; for the waterbag is never filled without the existence of a water-carrier. The bag always clings to the body of the water-carrier, saying, "Without you, I have no hand or knowledge or opinion." We have come again to that feast with the sweet dessert of which the sugarcane chewer attained his desire. We have come again to that sphere, in whose bent the soul roars like thunder. We have come again to that love at whose contact the div has become peri-like. Silence! Seal the rest under your tongue, for a jealous tutor has been put in charge of you. Speak not of the talk of the Pride of Tabriz, Shams-e Din, for the rational mind is not suitable for that speech. -- Translation by A. J. Arberry "Mystical Poems of Rumi 2" The University of Chicago Press, 1991 * Anqa or Simorg is the legendary bird by which the Sufis sometimes represent the unknown God. Simorg is sometimes considered to symbolize the perfect man. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Sunlight/messages To subscribe, please send an email to : sunlight-subscribe@yahoogroups.com post comment

[13 Dec 2009|08:48pm] azchica19 Contractions every three to four minutes. Midwife is on her way. 3.5 hours into heavy contractions 3 comments|post comment

Dear Universe: [13 Dec 2009|04:23pm] megszoo [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | what do you know puscifer ] That was a major cool move on your part sohaim seriously Thanks for the liquor,the weed and the bitches and don't forget how you pimped my ride this morning that was fuckin' sexual Also thanks for the money (which did not come from my mothers brother, by the way) Universe I've gotta say you really have my back Your my mother,father,sister,lover and best friend. I put my trust in you mother fuuuuuccckkkkeerrr (If you don't get that you have not watched all three seasons of the best show Ever-Californication) Dall Ouuuuuut (include finger point out the door)

[12 Dec 2009|10:59am] galaxyjen I went to the Doc and im okay....well not *okay* but it wasn't a miscarriage, thank gawd. After researching everything online and getting feedback from everyone I was really stressing out on that possibility. We want to have kids and it would have killed my soul to know that despite of my fertility issues I was able to conceive but not carry. The dr. asked me a very interesting question--he wanted to know when was the last time I had consistent monthly menses. After thinking about it for a few minutes I realized it was in 2005 when I had lost a ton of weight. Once I started to gain it back I started to have problems again. I know it's not the ONLY contributing factor but it's definitely something I need to consider. I know the weight and the PCOS go hand in hand....I gain weight because of the PCOS but I can manage the PCOS by losing weight. ....its like a double edged sword, you know? At any rate im gonna have to stay focused and do what i gotta do to lose 50lbs. I was doing well for a few weeks losing a few lbs here and there but i fell off the wagon. Dammit. I think that tonight we might hit up Sanctum for a bit--my coworker has been promoting the heck out of it and pretty much made me promise to try to go. I know a few of my cool coworkers are going and probably a few not so cool ones...ha. It's not that I hate Jesus, in fact we were good friends for a bit but he did some shady fucked up stuff to me. I'll talk to him but I don't trust him. That and he's kinda annoying always talking about his gayness.....If you are gay I agree 100% that you should be proud of who you are BUT is it ALL that you are? Seriously. If you are around this kid for 10 minutes you will see what i mean. Brad is out buying my X-Mas gift. I know what it is since he asked me about it beforehand and of course im making him give it to me today: I'm so freakin excited!!!! We researched the specs and reviews and whatnot and it appears to be an awesomely great camera. Although I love my Sony Cybershot I've been wanting something a little more professional. It also works out because my sis needs a camera so im gonna give her the cybershot. =) I've had it about 2 years but its still in excellent condition so I really think she will appreciate it. 9 comments|post comment

your dog died when i hit it with my power scooter (take away the s and you get) [11 Dec 2009|04:52pm] megszoo [ music | B.R.M.C red eyes and tears (drool) ] fuck taking a huge pay cut sucks chode man I miss the days where I was bringing in 2 grand a month and blowing it on the same things I currently blow money on those days were fun Now I must google how to successfully rob a bank also for a second I couldn't spell success that makes me sad or instead of googling robbing a bank I could do what I always do I will share this demeaning,yet hilarious process Dear Universe, I know I'm an asshole. I tell you, the Universe that you (as an entity?) are an asshole when I don't get what I want. I know this is untrue. I am responsible for getting what I want and need, and sometimes its too much pressure,so I blame you. When I get things I want, its always me, not you that I thank. I can't say this is going to change. (everybody needs a good ol' self serving bias) However the time has come, once again where I need you to focus all of your good energy on me for the next month. You know what I want, you know I need it. I know I am making an irresponsible choice right now,but I feel that it is an irresponsible choice that I need for myself, my spirit etc. PLEASE HELP UNIVERSE. I would like seven hundred and fifty dollars. No less,but more would be wonderful. Its not all for me. Well okay, technically its all for me,but a technicality is a window, right?!? RIGHT? anyway Universe,wonderful,beautiful, all encompassing universe. I know that you carry much energy to make this happen. If you really don't support my choice I understand,but I am still doing it with or without your help and I am going to have a great time. Please sponsor me. I need you or rather your infinite money. I promise to spend it all crap that will amuse you to no end. This somehow doesn't seem like a very good plea,but I know you'll do what's right. Again sponsor your star child, you brought me back with full carnal knowledge of how I like to roll. I am expecting your cheque in the mail and currently I am accepting donations. Love Meagan

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